today the moon seemed tangible
spherical
one thing in this world
sets my mind off
in fantasy
becoming is what makes anxiety
i am
is more contenting
potential ...
i am
this is what i can do now
this is what i can do
and my future is far off
and my imagined future
is where i cannot live
this is what i can do now
write
this is life
now
and i study literature
to gain knowledge
to know wisdom
to enact
to dream
to imagine
what life could be
what life is
theoretically

today the moon seemed tangible
seems to be
my memory
of a thousand flowers
in one room
seems to be
my vision
of a little girl
with long curly brown hair
in the grass
seems to be
my dreams
of holding my children
my emotions like waves
eternal
when will my imagination
of my memories
come true?
its hard to wait
and remember
this is what i can do now
and be content
this is what i can do now
to write
to keep imagining
and remembering
my future.